Busy busy busy with inking and coloring still... and resisting the urge to draw new stuff. I'm not so much in a writing mood so I'm focusing on development for all the stories currently. I took down the Fushigi Yuugi one because I posted it prematurely... It needs just a little more tweaking for things to make sense. Elle and Mias of course needs to have my OCs developed properly if I want them to fit in with the theme of Miss Jenny's world. I'm probably over thinking a lot of things, but I strive to make my Fan fiction line up to canon details and the general tone the original author sets. Miss Jenny is far too kind to me and not nearly critical enough to give me much direction (sorry Miss Jenny), but that does help my confidence in introducing new characters and such so it's a fair trade that I'm allowed that kind of freedom. I know I can do what I want really, but I feel it's my duty as a true fan of hers to remain true to her characters. Plus I tend to be overly polite with people I admire so yeah ^^'

Uh... let's see... not much else to report really other than I'm feeling like an old maid already given how many of my classmates are getting hitched and popping out kids. I dunno why it bugs me so much. I'm only 22, but I wanna have my first kid before I'm 30. Can't have kids (at least the fun way) without a man in my life and the one I've selected still has another four years of schooling. I suppose I better figure out my own career and move outta my folks house within that time... but I still have no frickin' idea what I'm supposed to do with my life. I love writing and drawing, but I dunno if I could make a living at it.... I've also wanted to do voice acting since I was younger. Funimation does so many good dubs that I'd love to be a part of it. Then there's my love of dogs... couldn't be a vet or a vet tech because of the euthanizing, but like a trainer and groomer. Don't know if I'd be very good at that, but I love animals, dogs especially. Also love my science and puzzles... but I'm numerically challenged so all the math and such required in those fields is off putting. But I dunno yet. I'm sure I'll figure it out soon... hopefully anyways.

Well, back to the drawing board!

I'm finally in an inking mood so lots of WIPs will be submitted in the next few days. And slowly but surely they'll be colored, but for now I'll let ya just see the lineart. I may do a little writing, but it's been so gosh dang hot here the past few days so maintaining a creative focus is a bit tricky. Thankfully inking doesn't require much. But yeah, I gotta get that pile down before I start drawing again... but I know I'll just keep adding to it! Gah! Oh well. It's how I roll. If I don't end up inking everything, I'll let ya see the pencil sketches. I know they're not always the best quality of my work, but I think it's interesting even so see how I turn a sketch into one of my finished, colored drawings.

It's annoying to be asked that. Unless you see "Fin" or "The End", it's NOT the end! Yer not usin' yer brains people! C'mon! Chapter 34 will be out in the next day or so with explanations and the new "arc" the story is entering. Keep your pants on. I'm not about to give up getting praise from Miss Jenny either so I plan to be working with her characters a while longer. I haven't even thought about how exactly I'm gonna end the story in fact. Sorry if I sound a bit pissy, but little things like this really do annoy me because it comes from people who lack common sense to realize the end of a story would be obvious. It's these people who need to be sterilized and kept in gated communities away from normal functioning individuals.

My sanity is still delicate so I really want to avoid things I find unpleasant. I'm still not feeling 100%, but I'm working at it. It's mostly bodily pains still. I've had the remains of a headache now since Sunday... it seems to keep moving about my head. It doesn't really "hurt", but it's annoying enough to make me feel off. Hopefully I'll recover soon. I'm getting exercise, sunshine, and trying to eat better to see if that's the issue... so far... nothing. The doc really didn't say anything one way or another with all my problems, just refilled my prescriptions. I suppose I should operate on "no news is good news", but I've been a lil more paranoid than usual lately. My being a worry wart personality wise doesn't help. But I'm currently lacking my support system for the week. has ventured to Texas to see family and is in a low-internet zone... I either need more close friends, or more distractions. But I bounce ideas and sketches off these guys so it can't be anything related to writing or drawing! I do have my plushies to sew... but I dunno. Wahh! I hope they come home soon!

Anyway, to clarify (even though I shouldn't have to >_<): ELLE AND MIAS IS STILL CONTINUING! I'll be submitted a reworked version of my old Fushigi Yuugi fanfic in the next few days as well. Undertaking Life will get some love eventually. And my artwork will be out when I finally get in the mood to ink. Other than that, ya'll should know by now I don't keep a specific schedule so no pestering me about release dates either. It'll be out, when it's out. Thank you very much.

My plans for the upcoming week are gonna be dependent mostly on what I hear from the doctor tomorrow. It's just a basic checkup and a chance to ask about recent health issues I've been having lately, mostly the frequent headaches, night sweats, and clearly out-of-whack hormones. I'm writing and drawing a lot... just not finishing anything to the point where I can submit yet ^^' I'll try to catch up soon. I've also decided to rewrite my first fic about Tasuki and Suiren. It's the story that started it all so I'm gonna go over my old files (if I can find them), and toil around with it a little.

I had a dream about Elle and Mias actually. Some studio had animated it using CGI and all the characters were in chibi form and renamed. It looked like a blatant ripoff of Miss Jenny so I got angry at the guy selling the DVDs but apparently she okayed it >.> I dunno. It was interesting tho to watch a tv series in a dream! XD My fic for them is still up there on the list of high priorities. We're reaching the first climax for this part of the story. I can confirm a second story arc at this point, meaning the chapters will continue for a while still. Look forward to it!

Undertaking Life probably could use some love as well. I've done some more sketches and worked a bit with the next chapter, but nothing is ready yet. Maybe if I didn't take on so many projects at once I'd actually finish stuff sooner, but I need the variety to keep from getting bored. I love all my stories of course, but working with the same stuff everyday just gets a lil 'meh', even though I know you guys love 'em, fulfilling my own happiness is priority number one. I decided last year I have to stop shortchanging myself. No one else is gonna go out of there way to make me happy so I gotta do it myself. I have to do a lotta things myself... but that's life, so I'll try not to bitch about it so much.

Anyway, just thought I'd report my situation. Have a good day ya'll.

Well... everything is in a folder now at least. I'm still looking to combine a bunch of drawings as well, but I need a break! Be sure to check out my older stuff though so you can see how far I've come. I'm quite pleased when I look back at my old work. X3

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I'm about to go to bed, but I thought I'd quickly inform everyone I'll be cleaning out my gallery soon. Mostly just organizing sketches and maybe combining lesser fav'd and commented pics together. So if there's anything from way back in my Fushigi Yuugi days that you for sure want to still have for your viewing pleasure, download it please. I dunno when I'll do this cleaning. There's a few other things I need to tend to first. It's just my older stuff really isn't views or helping my gallery any so it's time to tidy up. I don't get the whole storage thing and frankly I find it stupid: you see the link but can't view the pic? That's stupid. So yeah. I have a shit ton of pics I should be inking, but instead I just keep sketching... [link] >.> Yeah... That's less than a month's worth of drawings... XP But I just can't seem to get into an inking mood yet. I have new pens and everything, but eh, I must continue sketching and writing for now. And cleaning. You've all been advised now so no crying if something disappears that you liked.

Everything will be out by the end of the week. That is all.

When ever I write dialogue, the character speaks in my head with its own voice. It took me a while to pin point each one, but if Elle and Mias became an animated show, this is who I think would voice it. Yes, I know the story originates across the pond, but just imagine the American voice actors I've listed doing English accents and all will be well.

Keith David as Leadbury
It was his voice I pinned down first. Mr. David voiced Goliath from Gargoyles and Okkoto in Princess Mononoke. I think he'd make an awesome Leadbury. Or if you wanna go a Paul St. Peter route, that'd work too I suppose since Mr. St. Peter voices a lot of "monsters", but I really would prefer Keith David.

Chad Cline as Elias
Yeah, Mr. Cline doesn't do a whole lot of voice acting work but you may know him as the English voice for Akito Sohma (Fruits Basket). That usual level, smooth voice that can get worked up quite easily fits Elias' psychopathy.

Joshua Seth as Abernos
He voiced Tai Kamiya from Digimon. His voice is really uppity and goofy, and for some reason that's who I hear when I think of Abby. I would also suggest Vic Mignogna for the role as well because Joshua Seth's voice has a very unique sound to it, like he's almost still going through puberty. Vic Mignogna is very talented, but his energy is almost too much I think.

Doug Erholtz as Berenos
He voiced older TK in Digimon and he does Gin Ichimaru (Bleach)'s dub voice. It's a gentler voice, but also calm and firm. Very fitting for a big brother!

Maurice LaMarche as Duncan
Imagine him doing a dryer, more monotone version of Kif Kroker (Futurama) and you get Duncan. XD

Brina Palencia as Elle
She was hard to pick a voice for. She's not a "whiny" character so that rules out a bunch of voice actresses right away. I actually met Brina (along with Luci Christian) at Kakkoi Con 2008 up in the cities. Her normal speaking voice is young enough to work for Elle.

AND

Derek Stephen Prince as Mias
I know, I know! DSP WTF?! But that's who I hear! I suppose you could also get Chad Cline to do Mias since they're twins and probably sound a like, but Mias has more life in his voice and any cackling laughter reminds me of DSP. I'd like to hear other suggestions because even I think DSP isn't exactly the right fit.

I'm gonna hold off on writing for a bit because I wanna focus on Miss Jenny's birthday present. It's gonna be epic (hopefully). I hope I can finish it early so I can also get a chapter out for her as well. I have less than a week so provided I don't slack off any, I should be good. Chapter 30 has already been started, but then I hit a bit of writer's block.

Now Tales from a Dream is a series I'm thinking of releasing on here. It'll be a bunch of short stories/novelas based on actual dreams I've had. I had a Dark Shadows inspired dream the other night that filled my mind with wonderful ideas. I know I should focus on finishing more projects before I start another one, but I rather enjoy multitasking because I need the variety of different things. I want to give you guys the run down of what I'm planning before I actually start writing anything. I have already done some sketches >.>

I'm thinking it'll be set in some sort of steampunk Victorian era (Imagine all those building designs done with metal and gears! Awesome.) There's a large series of buildings that was once the mansion of this nobleman but now it's part of a college campus. In the dream he was cursed and buried alive by an evil witch, but I'm thinking I'll alter it that he's a necromancer who just fell asleep one day and didn't wake up. A few hundred years later he wakes up and what's left of his family are these old crones and this one girl. The girl, who has short hair, tends to dress like a boy because the crones make her do all the work. She's sorta like Cinderella. She keeps a good attitude and faithfully serves her family in hopes she'll one day be accepted by them. Well one day the Necromancer wakes up and digs himself out of his grave and proceeds to reestablish himself as the head of the family. The crones accept because he's powerful and they know he can restore the glory of their family as well as their youth. The girl of course offers up her services as his personal servant, but the crones aren't too happy she's getting close to him so one of them leak a story to a reporter who has a passion for trying to prove super humans exist in this world. The reporter basically starts stalking the poor gal as she tries to manage a part time job to earn money to support her family. Necromancer sees her being freaked out by all this and is able to get her away from the reporter but of course now she can't go to work or anything like that because she's being harassed by conspiracy theorists and such. Now the family was a family of vampires in the dream, but I changed this to just a race of people who live a freakishly long time, only when their leader went to sleep, their ability to maintain their youth was lost which is why they became so brittle. The girl is still very young, her grandfather married outside the family and all so she's more human than she is super human but she is chronologically up there in age despite looking about 16 or so. Anyway, trouble keeps continuing to find her and finally the old crones decide she's too big a liability so they decide to kill her and use her life energy to restore their own youth. Of course the only one capable of doing this is the Family Head, but he refuses because he'd rather have faithful servants than conniving family. This is just a first draft I have in my head, but I enjoyed that dream so much I thought I'd share it and get a lil feedback.

Anyway, I gotta get back to the drawing board. Enjoy your day everyone!

The main story at least. I still have a few mini stories I want to write. And there will be a sequel depending on what exactly happens in the manga. I don't like to fly in blind with a story, so I feel it's best to end the main story and come back with something new maybe by the end of the year when Mashima-sensei's had time to give us more juicy details. This'll give me more time to write for Elle and Mias and Undertaking Life hopefully. A lot of my artwork is still gonna be Pan and Reedus for a while though so there's that to look forward to if you're a Voix fan. Anyway, are there any comments or questions you have about Voix? Overall how did you like the series? I really want some more feedback for it so please, please gimme some. Thank you!

The Good News:
I don't have to go back to the dentist for fillings this time around. I'm not saying I'm cavity free, the areas of decay are just on a "watch"... So I better step up my oral hygiene to keep them from breaking through the enamel. I still don't think I have a purdy mouth or nice looking teeth (despite braces an' such), but I suppose I should at least prevent any further damage. *sigh* I'd be more motivated to do so if I could make out with my man every once an' a while, but I suppose my motivation has to be wanting to take care of myself... I'm still 'eh' about that, but we'll see if I feel differently after my doctor's checkup next month.

The Bad News:
Trip (our old retriever) went to the vet this morning and the vet thinks the lumps on his hind legs might be cancerous instead of just a build up a fatty tissue. Trip's bad breath due to a dead tooth in his mouth has also worsened and thus increased the vet's suspicions about cancer. Trip's gonna be on an antibiotic for a few days to see if that helps with the smell. If it does, then it's not cancer. If it doesn't help... well... Gah... He's gonna be 15 next month so I know he's an old boy, but... I don't wanna lose my other dog. I'd like to say I've been preparing for it, but I don't think you're never really prepared for the death of someone close to you. I love my dogs... I still miss Rufus horribly... Trip stinks and he's annoying at times, but he's still my boy... I mean, he's 15 (practically)! He's been with me for a good part of my life... You don't just say "goodbye" easily to a creature who's been raised with you like a weird, furry sibling. And ma keeps saying we won't get another dog after Trip goes, but... that'll leave such a void... I don't remember not having a retriever in my house. I visit the neighborhood dogs often, but it's just not enough.

So, that's where I'm at right now. I'll keep ya'll posted of course. As for story updates and such, they'll be out when they're out. I don't have a whole lot of motivation right now so I'm just gonna wait until the mood strikes me. I don't like making promises I can't keep so I won't say when I think I'll submit anything unless I'm certain. Hope your days are going alright.

It seems I unintentionally pissed a few folks off with my last journal. Well sorry folks. I'm by no means an anti-feminist, but realistically speaking women will never equal to men. They'll always be suppression of people by gender, race, religion, etc. Lots of people complain about this but there's all talk and not enough action. I don't suggest we riot in the streets and burn our bras, but direct our efforts into proving we're equal instead of bitching that we aren't all the time. Talking about issues like this is pointless because too often those you seek to convince otherwise won't even listen to your opinion. I feel a few people were closed minded enough to do that with my last post. Unwatch me, fine. I don't like closed minded folks anyway and I'd rather have my work appreciated by those who have the ability to empathize and see another person's point of view. I take pride in who I am as a person, but just because I think I'm right doesn't mean everyone else is wrong. We are as we are, 'right' in our own ways... except for republicans. I don't think I'll ever be convinced they care. I do have a few friends who are republicans though, but we know better than to bring up politics because it just starts a fight. We're all happy if we just shut up and watch anime. That's what the whole world should do, shut up and watch anime and My Little Pony. That'd be awesome.

Did Su just update every single story? Yes. Yes, I did. It hit me and I rolled with it. Now I feel I can slack off without worry for a lil while. XP I'm feelin' a bit better. It's finally nice out! 70s! No chilly wind! I'm in my shorts an' cami an' I'm photosynthesizing up in my backyard with my ol' dog. But took a break cuz don't wanna get burned, but I'll be back out soon for walkies and such. YAY! It's also my ol' man's birthday today. Pops is 68. Yeah, I got one of those Grandpa-Dads. Which is fine because both my grandfathers were dead before I was born. No uncles either (I had a great uncle but there was no deep relationship)... I've never had any strong male role models in my life. Do I think I missed out? Eh, maybe, but I doubt it'd make a difference. A good male role model is essential for boys tho, but my brothers turned out pretty okay. Ol' pops has done okay. Ma helped too of course.

Anyway, it sorta came up with my most recent submission of Voix so I thought I'd also take the time to give ya my standing on Abortion. I'm not looking to take a debate, I just wanna voice my opinion on it so you can better understand where I'm coming from.

First of all! There's no excuse nowadays to get pregnant if you're really set against having kids. If you do miraculously conceive, you take responsibility pure and simple. If you don't want it after it's born, you give it up for adoption. I know the foster care system messes up a lotta kids, but babies are usually placed in a stable home and tend to grow up normal.  But what about rape victims? Well, again, you need to take responsibility for your body. It's a horrible, traumatic experience but that's no excuse to prevent seeking medical care. Get a rape kit and the Plan B pill. Putting off medical care only jeopardizes your health and your case against getting the bastard who did that to you. I know the emotional trauma is severe for a lot of women, but you can't let yourself be victimized any more than you already have so you go to the hospital. As for sick fetuses... well... that's where I face difficulty. Personally, I... I wouldn't want a child who can't function independently... so... I dunno... I wouldn't feel right giving it up to make it the burden of the state either so out of mercy... maybe... As the mother, I do feel the decision is up to her to do what she thinks is best. "Put in gods hands" is bullshit because there isn't a god. Religious people piss me off thinking divine intervention will solve all their problems instead of them having to do the work and making hard decisions themselves. People need to have more faith in themselves and their own abilities. But that's another rant for another time.

As you can tell, I don't agree with abortion, but it's a moral issue for me and not a legal one. Women who truly don't want a baby will find a way to abort it whether or not its legal. If you get pregnant and want to have an abortion, well, who am I to stop you? To me though, abortion is just a last ditch effort for irresponsible fuckers who didn't use a condom, birth control, or other contraceptives. If those kinda people do get pregnant, then of course I don't want the child to be raised by them because then it'll grow into another irresponsible fucker spawning more dumbasses who rely on welfare because they never developed a good work ethic, so please, give that child up. Yes, those fucked up genes may hold the kid back a little, but it's ultimately the parenting one receives that determines personality. A good, stable environment where they grow to be welcomed additions to the gene pool.

Seriously, this latest generation of kids is so pathetic... I've read some of the papers my mother brings home and they're sad guys... And these kids think they're going to college when they don't do their homework or show up for class. But colleges won't hold them responsible either so long as tuition is paid. The group of drunk kids who beat my uncle (the one who died last December), never got in trouble with the college! The police let them go! Everything is about money! There's hardly any decent, caring folk left in the world to tell these kids 'no'! I didn't like it either but I know I've turned out to be a better person for it! I have good moral values and I don't walk around like my shit don't stink. It does. I'm not special. If I die, the world goes on. If you want to be 'special', you have to work at it! Pure and simple! Be responsible for your own actions!

Now, as for the A-word on a legal level... Why is this even a debatable topic? Republicans say they're against abortion, but ever since it was legalized NOT ONCE has a republican president tried to repeal it. The simply say they're against it to get the God loving folks on their side, which pisses me off. These religious folks who go around loving and praising Jesus won't vote for a Democrat because they're "baby killers?" Look, voting Democratic does not mean I'm a baby killer. I was raised Catholic. I know the stories. I went to church until I was 16. I left after my confirmation class had presenters who told us being gay was something "God doesn't do". So I left. No one practices as they preach nowadays. The hide behind values they don't embrace. Republicans are not good Christians. They're just greed driven egomaniacs. If Jesus belonged to a political party, he'd ride in on the donkey as he did in the Bible. I'm not looking to convert anyone to what I feel is "reality", but I want you all to think a little deeper about things.

I have nothing against the teachings of Jesus. Great guy. Did good things. Son of God? Eh. I dunno. I'm agnostic. I'm open to the possibility of it all, but logically speaking it's a long shot. I believe in energies and an afterlife of course. It's too depressing to think we just stop existing after all. My problem lies with the people who misconstrue the teachings of their prophets and use those sacred texts for own agendas. No. You all cut that shit out right now. Keep thy religion to thyself! I don't care what you believe if it makes you happy! Just don't use it as an excuse to knock on my door and interrupt my evening or fly a plane into a building and kill a bunch of folks! None of these gods in any religion condone the killing of others ya dumbasses! If there is a god, humanity is making him facepalm. Just be good people! Be kind to one another! And take responsibility for your own actions! PLEASE!

I RANT BECAUSE I CARE, DAMMIT!!

I dunno if it's the weather (there's been frigid winds the past few days) or what, but I'm still in a bit of a funk except I'm still drawing and writing and producin' good enough stuff, it's just... I'm not as excited about it as I usually am. I mean, I do look forward to feedback and such, not that I get a whole lot on anything side from Elle and Mias stuff. I understand. That's how I started pushing through the crowd in the first place to make you people know my name. I'm still debating whether or not I should go see my doctor... my depression pills are working fine I suppose, not counting this rut, but I really need my BC looked into. The bacne's been bad and my cycle is weird so I think I need a lil more to control those stupid hormones. I have enough issues with my mental health, I don't need my lady issues causing problems too. Ah, fuck it, I'll call the clinic after I finish this entry. The night sweats and increased occurrence in headaches is something I also wanna discuss. Being the worry wart that I am, I can sometimes be a bit of a hypochondriac... But better safe than sorry.

Already called in for a Dental appointment... I hate the fuckin' dentist sooooo much. And I ALWAYS have cavities. Yes, my oral hygiene isn't that good, but last year I really stepped up my efforts and still got more fillings so I gave up and I'm back on my old habits... Probably not a good thing, but I don't believe in wasting my time and effort. I already fucked up by not brushing enough when I had braces so my teeth look like shit anyway. They're strait, but all my molars have shiny silver fillings and my "smile" zone isn't exactly ideal... But I figure by now I shouldn't have any "teeth" left to get cavities so here's hoping I won't need a return appointment... But I know I will anyway. >_< I wish we had teeth like sharks where they just keep falling out and growing back. ...And speaking of braces, I'll need an orthodontist appointment to see if I can finally get this wire band off my bottom front teeth. Flossings a bitch with that thing and I've had my braces off for 5 years now I think? Maybe 6. I don't remember.

Lessee... my learner's permit for driving is about to expire so I either gotta renew it or pass my driving test. I've had my permit for 7 years now and I've only taken my road test once. I just don't get a chance to practice that much and it's not like there's a real need for me to be able to drive. But I suppose, once I have it I have it and that's that. So probably should make an appointment for that as well.

So that's a buncha shit I know I need to do and I'm not too happy about all of it. The whole moving thing is in limbo at the moment so it could still go either way I guess. The only other thing pressing on my mind is the usual heart pining for guy who gives me affection. I could really use a good hug from him right now... curse our two hour distance and his lack of free time. I guess I'll be happy once it's summer and he can visit me. I do fantasize about corny romantic date scenarios, but really, we're always happy so long as we can be near each other. I guess long distance helps in that respect, but we have needs too ya know and a dirty imagination can only get ya so far.

My sleep schedule is also completely fucked up. I've been up all night and I've yet to feel the crash approaching. I've taken a few breaks to see if it'll come, but nothing yet. I'll probably clonk out after noon and wake up after dinner like I did yesterday.

So anyway, that's the situation right now with me. I'll work on Elle and Mias after I call the clinic but the quality may suck due to lack of sleep and thus I may not post for a while still. Sorry. Patience is a total bitch, but hang in there. I hafta battle my own demons fer a little bit first. Ya'll understand. Making sure my mind and body are healthy is important to the creative process after all.

I just have a general feeling of malaise. Not that I'm getting sick or anything, but my drive to do anything has become "eh". I'm slowly forcing my way through it. I got a lotta stuff to color, but I'm just not in the mood for it right now. Tried writing, but my energy doesn't feel right yet. Maybe I am getting a wee bit ill because I've been very tired lately, but other than that I feel fine. Mood wise I've been a lil cranky, so that's another reason I'm putting off writing until my aura is cleansed. Last time I was cranky, I killed all of Mias' brothers. True story. My family was bein' too darn loud so I didn't get enough sleep so I was ticked and needed blood shed to feel better. Of course I always planned on offing the brothers, but being cranky gave me the incentive that day I sat down to write XD

So for now I'm gonna continue at a pace that fits me. I thought I could try to keep to a schedule, but that's just not my style. Stuff will be out when it's out. Pure and simple. I'll try to make sure the wait between chapters isn't too long. I'm impatient too so I understand how annoying waiting can be.

I'm trying to reduce the drawing pile that's built up in the bottom drawer of the desk the computer sits on. Between deciding what I'm going to finish and what remains a sketch, I still have a pretty decent pile to finish up. I'm gonna try to avoid drawing until I have that pile all taken care of. I've done a lot already and hopefully by tonight I'll be all done. Then it's back to writing and creating more drawings! I'm invigorated by my desire to cheer up Miss Jenny since she hasn't been feeling well. Let us all send her good vibes!

I still feel off though. My sleep schedule is messed up yet again and when I do sleep, I wake up covered in sweat! I'm so darn cold when I go to bed, but clearly I'm getting too hot if I'm sweating. My room stinks and I need to wash my sheets more than I ought to. It's annoying. I thought it was a pajama thing so I went nekkid a few times and I was colder than normal, but still woke up sweaty. >_< Any chance someone has advice for this problem?

Okay, back to the drawing board... literally!

Argh! For two days now I've been dealing with a headache. The pain isn't as intense as other headaches I've had, but it's relentless. Pills aren't working. Yesterday it was on the right side of my head and today it's on my left. Migraine? Allergies? Brain Tumor? I dunno, but I seem to keep getting more and more out of it. I've simply been trying to sleep it off, but other than the headache, I feel fine and can't commit to staying in bed non stop, plus ya gotta eat and drink and poop so yeah. I did manage to get some chapters out as ya'll see so that's good, so I think I'm out of the mental funk... but physical ones are a bitch because I'm actually in pain! I am not happy, but I'm roughing through it. I still promised some peeps some drawings and I gotta keep writing. Hopefully I'll feel better soon. I can handle belly aches because I'm used to them, but these more frequent headaches I've been getting are killin' me. There's nothing work when my imagination center is under the pressure of a headache. Since I'm desperate, feel free to suggest stuff for me to try. Basic pain relievers aren't working and caffeine hasn't helped much either and I washed my hair last night hoping the massaging of my scalp would help... it didn't. I foresee this as a continual problem so please, HELP ME!

It's not uncommon for me to have a bought of depression around my birthday... I guess I just figured I was doing so well that I might not have to deal with it this year. I was wrong. It's nothing serious and there's no direct issue weighing on me, I just woke up the other day completely uninterested in things and "sighy". *sighs* I'm sure it'll pass after a while. I've been taking walks and getting sun when I can to help my hormones and vitamin levels, but now we've slipped into gray rainy days... which I do like because everything smells so clean and the grass and trees are finally gettin' green, but very much like a cat, I become tired and just plain bored with everything else that usually gets me frisky. I am forcing myself to continue writing and drawing, but I'm not producing the quality of work I know I can create so if I don't get anything posted this week, I'm sorry. I can't predict when these moods are gonna strike, even though I've taken precautionary measures to prevent a bad case of the blues. I guess that's the nature of the disease. Don't worry, it's not a "crying and wishing I were dead" depression, it's just the "tired and uninterested in things" kind. I suppose you could just call that being lazy, but the fact is I WANT to draw and write an' all that, but I just... can't.

The only thing weighing on my mind is the fact we may be moving. I don't really have any attachment to our current house in particular, but I just plain don't like the house we'd be moving to. But this new house has everything my folks need and want as they get older and such so I can't bring myself to tell them I don't wanna move, and that makes sense cuz hey, I don't plan on living with my parents forever... but I do think it's gonna be a few years still before I can be out on my own. Still not getting my own room so that's really not giving me any incentive to wanna move. Plus ya know it's gonna be a hassle having to pack everything up and all that. We're not leaving the valley we live in and that's a plus I suppose cuz I do like the neighborhood, but I just don't like the house! Yeah, it's nice an' all that, but it doesn't suit my tastes and the room my sister and I would get doesn't enchant me in the slightest. I suppose we'll find out in the next day or so whether the buyers looking at our place really want it or not. If they make an offer ma likes, well... we'll move the end of June (since ma can't move while school is still in session - too much work to deal with an' all).

Let's see... also been missing my lover so that always adds into the sorrow. I've been good up until now, but it's been over 3 months now and I have needs. Maybe I should just try to get my driver's license and see if my folks would let me take one of the cars up to the cities... Agh, they'd say 'no' of course because I have no experience driving in big city traffic. There's always the bus of course, but $58 there an' back is a lot for a poor chump like me. Still haven't had any commissions either... *sigh* I'm gonna be forced to get a lousy part time job, aren't I?

Anyway, that's the current situation. I am looking forward to Bones returnin' to tv next week. Oh, an' did ya'll know House is in its final season? I know! I'm sad. There's hardly any good TV on basic cable nowadays. Also saw the leaked episode of Legend of Korra and it's pretty good. Um... as always, I have Fairy Tail to look forward to. The Bleach anime is ending next week... they shouldn't have done the Fullbringer arc. It woulda been much better if they stopped after defeating Aizen. Seriously. And the manga's not doing much better, but I keep reading to validate my critique. I'm so disappointed in Kubo.

And uh... well, I guess that's about it for now. I'll keep trying to push myself through this funk and get some work done. Send me good vibes! Thank you very much!

Oh! Side note! Been drawing more Pan and Reedus in their animal forms and in the course of my research I discovered rams have HUGE scrotums! Weird lookin' penises though. So if you're slightly immature like I am, go look it up yourself! Poor Sheep Reedus now has something to either be very proud of or very embarrassed of. XD

Thank you once again to everyone who wished me well on my birthday. The day went alright. Nothing special. But that's okay. Just thought I'd take the time to also thank the participants in the Art Trade and those who just did something for me outta the goodness of their hearts. Thank you very much!



And yes, I love Manta Rays and wish to ride one some day.

MY BIRTHDAY IS TOMORROW!! I've already gotten wonderful presents; Deichan has sketched for me, you all have participated in art trades, and I've gotten myself some manga and finally a pair of overalls! I think they're cute if ya can do 'em the right way so And tomorrow some buddies of mine are comin' over for cake and then taking me to see their horses so that should be enjoyable. I hafta make my cake tonight cuz it tastes best after sitting in a the fridge a while. It's a chocolate mix, then ya poke holes in it an' fill it with caramel and sweet and condensed milk. The frosting is then just whipped cream with chopped up heath bars. It's really moist and sweet and I love it~ I'd share a piece with alla ya if I could, but distance prevents a lotta that. I'm sorry!

Anyway, I don't have any really big plans besides all that. I've allowed myself to be a little lazy with my artwork this week so you'll have to forgive me for that. There'll probably be another huge batch of submissions sometime next week, writings included. There's been lovely weather this entire week too so I've been trying to get outside a lot. I got a bunch of weird things going on with my skin so I'm hopin' getting some sun will help clear everything up. I still don't think I'm much too look at, but I always took pride in having nice skin. Acne scarred my face pretty bad recently tho... and now I have those other things to deal with, but all in all I'm still soft and smooth and I like me that way. It's fun to just rub my own legs after I've shaved. It makes me giddy! Heehee. I'm a bit nuts since I was sick this morning and my energy is all over, but I don't care.

Yesterday I was able to go shopping and bought a buncha felt for making plushies so I'm also gonna be doing that. The first plushie I ever made turned out quite well and all I used was a needle and thread and a bit of fabric glue. My task this time is to create Reedus (both versions) and Pan. Shouldn't be that difficult... but it'll be a continuous project that I'll only work on in short bursts so I'll still take time to draw and write. Hehe. Don't worry. I haven't forgotten about any of my other projects, but sometimes ya just need to do something different for the sake of creativity. So that'll be fun. I'll take pics once they're finished of course. Don't judge too harshly since I'm a total sewing noob.

Alright, that's all for now! Party on my deviant profile tomorrow! WOOO!! See you guys then! I love you all!

My finger's finally healed enough to the point where I can hold my pencil without being in pain so I'm back to drawing board! I already have my art trade sketches done and I'll be finishing those up later in the week. Writing will probably be a bit slow go this week since it's Spring Break so a lotta my family is home during the day thus there's no real peace and quiet. And I'm gonna try to have one of those social lives this week to celebrate my birthday this coming Friday. Ya'll don't forget to spoil me rotten that day. It's the only day per year when I feel I have the right to be a little selfish. A big thanks to everyone who's already drawn me presents! Art trades are closed though since I didn't get the turn out I expected and thus I'm not gonna waste my time waiting for any more requests. I can be quite impatient at times.

The weather here was so nice today. In the low 70s with a gentle breeze. Ah, perfect. This entire week looks good so I'm happy. Usually I get slush and snow storms on my birthday so it's nice to have a warm and lovely spring one. Then soon we'll have cleansing April rains and ooooh how I love those days. That smell. The chill of a raindrop landing on your skin. Mm! I can't wait. And it's gonna hafta rain because our city is too cheap to clean the streets. The road I live in is in desperate need of repair too. Patch work is shit. I'm just sayin'. I hate having to remove chunks of road from my yard! Plus I want to get back into rollerblading but not on these streets I can't. Oh well. There's an old joke the seasons in Minnesota are Winter, Winter, Summer, and Road construction. But they fix every road but mine! No es bueno mi amigos.

Anyway, I should get back to my business. I may have stuff to upload tomorrow if all goes okay. It's Spring Break tho so all my family is home all day so no peace and quiet until nightfall, so the amount of work I'll be able to get done may vary. As always, I'll try my best! Or just be lazy and procrastinate. Depends on my mood. Okay everyone. Have a good week!


Commission Info
I've never done commissions before so for starters, it's gonna be you get 1 character, inked and colored, for $7. That seems fair. For every additional character, just add in another dollar. Chibis will be cheaper at about $5. I know I'm not popular or as talented as other artists, thus I think the pricing is fair. If I think I'm overpriced or short changing myself, prices may change but yer all free to make donations. Payment via PayPal. Note me for your order and I'll send the needed information. Please DO NOT comment here!